WATCH YOUR MOUTH!

Hi! This blog is a little deep so I thought I would brighten it up with some bright pictures of my cactus'. So there's that.

Have you ever said something that you immediately feel bad for saying? While the words are coming out of your mouth…you wish you could suck them right back in? Well if you haven’t… I have done this enough for you and I combined.

When I was a little girl I always remember, my mom saying, “Watch your mouth.” I would just keep talking and spiral myself down a hole. I noticed last night that I really do need to take my mom’s advice and “Watch my mouth,” (After only 23 years).

I have said something today where I said to myself, “WHY did you just say that?” So many arguments and fights could have been avoided if I just kept my mouth shut. I tend to tell the truth, but I do not tell it in the nicest way. This can really hurt people. I do not mean to hurt people.

I say things in my life to people that just are not nice. I asked myself, “Why do I do this?”

I had to rack my brain for an answer. I do not think that I am a mean person. I think that I am honest (maybe too honest) but I truly care about people and really want the best for someone in life.

Then it hit me, I do not talk to people nice, or say rude or mean things because that is how I talk to myself! When I started to think of this, I could not believe it. Some of the things I say to myself, I would never ever say to anyone else.

Wow. What a break through…or could I even call it that? Why do I talk to myself like I do? Am I the only one? There was only one answer that came in my head.

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10

The devil does not want anything good to come from my life. He hates when I am happy and when I am at peace. The also starts with what I say to myself, which leads to, what I say to others.

I am going to list some of the things that I say to myself to give an insight.

Negative Thoughts

Everyone will leave you.
People do not like you at all, they just make fun of you.
You have no friends because you are annoying.
You are stupid, it is a surprise you graduated college.
Nobody likes you.
Nobody wants to hear about your life.
You are ugly.
You are so weird.
You will never be good enough no matter how much you try.
You just make a mess.

These are just to name a few things that I speak to myself and I am by no means doing this for pity or attention. I am doing this because I know I am not alone! I know everyone at some point struggles with their thought life.

I started to think back to what I say when I get frustrated with people or angry. I reflect these same thoughts on the ones I love. When you think about this, it only makes since. I think these all the time! Why wouldn't I project them to others?

I have identified the problem. Cool. Dandy. The question is...how do I stop this from happening in the future? I make myself think positive.

Positive Thoughts

People come and go in Gods timing.
People do like me, I am a good person.
I do not have many friends because I am introverted and can do without the drama. The friends I do have, will last a life time.
You graduated college in 4 years. Only 12% of college students accomplish this.
My family loves me and so does my boyfriend and pets.
God cares about every aspect of my life.
You are beautiful in Gods eyes!
I am unique.
I can never be perfect but I will try my best to be who I am created to be.
I help a lot of people with my photography and gym advice.

I would like to say that was easy to spin those thoughts into happy positive thoughts. But this blog is about honesty and truth...it was so hard. But I did it.

It is hard to watch my mouth! To this day it gets me in so much trouble. I know with practice of keeping my mouth shut and thinking good things about myself, my thought life will change.

How do you watch your mouth? Do you struggle with your thought life too? Please comment below your thoughts! Thank you so much for reading.

XOXO

Mackenzie